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This winter has been uncharacteristicly (awkward word!) mild - we have had very little snow, and really warm temps - and many people around here are so happy. This week we have been experiencing 70 degree temps, and it seems everyone is all happy and chipper and enjoying the warm sunn weather (minus the tornados yesterday) but I feel all a-funk. I have not had the chance to enjoy the snow and cool weather. I think I need the change in weather and sceenery to re-set my inner mind. When I lived in CA I would get so depressed over the lack of "seasonal" landscape, and the perpetual blue skys. I think I am odd, because everyone else seems to think that he blue skies are happy. Oh well. I've always knwon I am wierd.

I'm just in a funk.

Lauren seems to be struggling with emotions again. Are they due to her meds? Or is she just experiencing secondary anxiety due to the fact that she is on meds? I think she had another mild anxiety attack last night. I guess I really should look into a thearpist for her - her symptoms do not seem to be constant, but this waffling is just as frustrating to us. Maybe more - we keep thinking we have an answer or fix and then the problem reappears.

I also need to make a stupid decision on my new vehicle. What do I repalce my beloved Durango with? I want good gas milage, lots of space for people and cargo, 4-wheel drive, good safety for passengers, ability to tow our camper, and low cost : ) I'd love to have multiple cars for each purpose. The huge range of needs is what confuses me. I think I am used to having different vehicles for all purposes. Just dont have the space to store them living in the city.

I want to live in the country again! grumph. I want chickens, an out building, maybe a green house, a decent sized garden, a pond, woods, and just space!!! Imiss space. I hate having neighbors looking in my windows.

Yea, I am just in a funk this week.

I also need to go to the gym. Life is crazy the next two weeks and I do not think I will have time to go there often. I need to though. I did so well when I was going 5x a week.

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